“Think you're escaping and run into yourself. Longest way round is the shortest way home.”- James Joyce

I found that to tell the truth is the hardest thing on earth, harder than fighting in a war, harder than taking part in a revolution. If you try it, you will find that at times sweat will break upon you. You will find that, even if you succeed in discounting the attitudes of others to you and your life, you must wrestle with yourself most of all, fight with yourself, for there will surge up in you a strong desire to alter facts, to dress up your feelings. You'll find that there are many things you don't want to admit about yourself and others. As your record shapes itself an awed wonder haunts you, and yet there is no more exciting an adventure than trying to be honest in this way. The clean, strong feeling that sweeps you when you've done it makes you know that
      -Richard Wright, author of Black Boy and Native Son

Last night made me question my pathway quite a bit.
I guess a lot actually, since I'm still thinking about it this morning.

Working as a Supervisor has been a gift and a curse. It's so hard to have 60% power. While I know for a fact I can run a great floor, it's annoying to not have all the resources the actual managers do.
It's also frustrating when there is an MIT on duty that is useless and I know they're getting a paycheck that I'm earning. lol. I got it laugh it off but sometimes it does get me down a notch in vibration.

Contrast is good. It always reminds me that there's something that I don't want in the picture. I just can't figure out how much of it I don't want. I don't want to have to babysit young adults into doing their job. I don't want to constantly hear negative comments from guests about what they think they deserve and didn't get it. It seems like I keep ending up somewhere on the totem pole that doesn't really give me all the access I want to fulfillment. Possibly time for a re-route.

Rampage.

Attraction. Love. Happiness. Fluidity. Flexibility. Exhaling. Acceptance. Inspiration. Inspiring. Motivated. Impressionable. Open-Minded. Deliberate Creation.

Tonight was a Supermoon in Aquarius.

During my meditation I received a message that my grandparents wouldn't have wanted me to miss them so much to the point of blocking myself off from feeling love or new experiences.

They would want me to be happy.

It really resonated with me to the point of tears and I do sometimes stop myself from opening up because I don't constantly want to relive that loss. But not allowing love only increases the pain.

It really was something so easy to hear but I didn't really understand until lately.

Forbes Thought Of The Day

“ You have to accept whatever comes, and the only important thing is that you meet it with the best you have to give. ”
— Eleanor Roosevelt


Happy Birthday Poppy